Sad Love

As our worlds became bigger and wider. Many things happened beyond our knowledge. We became strange with our own world. We became servant with our own emotions. At some moments when were hurt and seems like the world is full of darkness and seems like no one wants to hear your story, and they will judge you like they know you. We feel most of the time we feel like were all alone with our journey, all bad things happen in series and seems like the world is dark and there's no place to find a light. .

As I ask someone to listen their too busy and doesn't have a time. I spend a lot of nights crying in my downpour. I am so sad and I am so mad how could they say  that they will stay while in fact they don't wanna stay and just wanna play . How sad to think they always misunderstood my  action, whatever I do is a imperfect. everything is a mess right now, I've got no choice but to embrace the anger that grow . How I wish someone could evade it. Even my faith  can't save me from the wrong decisions I've made. Now I'm sitting on this chair they are all blaming me for what had happened, haven't gotten in their mind that they are the one responsible in pushing me to things that I don't like. If they just pause and listen, if they just stay and hug me,  I won't be like  this I won't be a sad teen right now. I wish to be ruined in my own terms and my own pace. I wan't to smile but my lips don't know how. I wan't to change but my mind don't want to, 'cause this is my only mask to hide the loneliness. I pray and plead and beg and grieve. I have glance upon heavens golden throne and found it's empty. I hope I could change my path with a little faith I have. I want to be renewed. I wan't to be back I wan't to be me again but I guess there is no turning back on the place where I am right now. 

It's cold and freezing, but I am used to the feeling being left and hanging. Everything is changing and I guess love is not worth sacrificing for it will leave you bleeding and crying.

Tips to make you pass your midterms and finals.

Everything we do has a lot of hacks. Below are some study tips to study midterms or finals that seems like a whole semester a night before it.







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Before anything else  don't leave your social medias account open, they may tempt you to check them every minute or it may divert your focus so  better not to turn on you computer, i pods, and put your phone to silent mode. So that you can have focus in what you are doing.

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Write all the formulas and important terms in a separate sheet of paper or notebook so that, you wont be confuse and it's easier to review. For  engineering students, make sure to take note and memorize all the formulas, because that is  the most important in taking engineering exams. Make sure you understand what you are writing in a separate sheet. 

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It's been said that alcohols can make you smarter. Moderate intake of alcohol can also make your brain sharp. It can also improve your creativity. So, why not  have a can at your side. Remember: MODERATE DRINKING ONLY.

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Chocolates can help you retain the things you memorized for the exam. Sweets can gave energy to the brain.. In the middle of your study session when you feel your brain is giving up, try to eat some dark chocolates or any sweet they can give energy to your brain. 

 

Those tips works in me, so why not try it? and remember  to write all your formulas in your examination sheet before you answer, in case you might forget it the middle of the exam. Goodluck with the midterms and finals.

THUG LIFE

I don't  wanna limit myself of becoming happy but how can I be happy when I'm so busy in my study? I wan't to explore new things, I wan't to experience the things as my colleagues experience. As of 17 years of my existence I focus only on my study. I always work hard and study hard. YES, I meet their expectations but I lost a lot of chances. Now I am a strange of my own self. Insecurities step on me, I wanna be like them but how? I guess I'm too late I'm old, and I can't travel back into time and chance everything. As a piece of advice from a girl hiding from the word, " If your bother is jumping in a pile of leaves, join with him forget what you are doing, If your mother ask you to go with her in shopping, then go! It is a rare opportunity, If your dad, wants you to stay at home then stay, 'cause he just want to have great time with you, and if your friend is sad and broken then come to her and lend your shoulder for her to cry. For all of these are so rare it will never happened again, if you allow it to pass, one day will come you'll regret it.". Assignments? they can wait. Lessons can be learned, but wasted memories can never be bought back. So as long a your still young, do what makes you happy, don't let the school pressure you and limits your happiness. Don't let anyone control your happiness, create your own world, make your own life, do things that make you happy, 'cause nothing is constant, everything come and go. Some might go, but leave a deep lesson that may defined you in the future. SO Choose happiness always. KEEP SMILING ! KEEP FIGHTING.

Life is twisted as always when you learn to stand on your own decisions, life does everything to make you stumble again, but don't let it change your personality. Even if it causes too much pain, sadness and  deprivation from society never change your attitude. Remember your values will help you out in a dark tunnel wherein light awaits you. Keep exploring the beauty of life. Never set limitations and rules to yourself. Let yourself be hurt and experience all those emotions in world for it will help you define yourself and make you acquainted with your own. For no one can understand you like you do. Some people might just hurt you, but be thankful to them for they make you realize that you deserve someone better than them. I remember my friend telling me, Life is precious all you have to do is to find the gem of your life. How funny even in what situation you are in life , even if you are so down and doesn't have any reason to continue fighting, you just have to think that you need to find the gem to define happiness for you.  

Everything in this world has a equivalent amount, but except happiness. Love? it can be bought, but real happiness will never be bought. Keep fighting, keep moving, keep loving, and rocking the life you had."NO ONE KNOWS YOU BETTER THAN YOUR SELF", "ONLY YOU CAN DEFINE YOUR HAPPINESS". "YOU ARE THE POET OF YOUR OWN LIFE, SO WRITE THE BEST STORY YOU CAN WRITE."

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UNREQUITED LOVE ❤💔

I know I can't make you mine, but I'm hurt like hell I can't escape from this pain. You love her and I love you, what a nice sad love story you know. I've been staying late up all night, drinking all alcohol just to forget this damn feeling for you. What can I do baby I was caught by your trap. You make me love you and play your game and left me hanging like a floating balloon. I lost my directions, I lost my realm and I don't even know myself right now. I am somebody with a dark world. No light had shine upon me. May you realize in choosing her, you kill someone 500 times over and over again, but I guess I should end this worthless feelings for you. You just make me change myself and  never loved the new me. You're not even the  man of my dreams but you make me make you a man of my life. I LOVE YOU but I need to bid GOODBYE, hope you're happy that you saw me cry!!