Sad Love

As our worlds became bigger and wider. Many things happened beyond our knowledge. We became strange with our own world. We became servant with our own emotions. At some moments when were hurt and seems like the world is full of darkness and seems like no one wants to hear your story, and they will judge you like they know you. We feel most of the time we feel like were all alone with our journey, all bad things happen in series and seems like the world is dark and there's no place to find a light. .

As I ask someone to listen their too busy and doesn't have a time. I spend a lot of nights crying in my downpour. I am so sad and I am so mad how could they say  that they will stay while in fact they don't wanna stay and just wanna play . How sad to think they always misunderstood my  action, whatever I do is a imperfect. everything is a mess right now, I've got no choice but to embrace the anger that grow . How I wish someone could evade it. Even my faith  can't save me from the wrong decisions I've made. Now I'm sitting on this chair they are all blaming me for what had happened, haven't gotten in their mind that they are the one responsible in pushing me to things that I don't like. If they just pause and listen, if they just stay and hug me,  I won't be like  this I won't be a sad teen right now. I wish to be ruined in my own terms and my own pace. I wan't to smile but my lips don't know how. I wan't to change but my mind don't want to, 'cause this is my only mask to hide the loneliness. I pray and plead and beg and grieve. I have glance upon heavens golden throne and found it's empty. I hope I could change my path with a little faith I have. I want to be renewed. I wan't to be back I wan't to be me again but I guess there is no turning back on the place where I am right now. 

It's cold and freezing, but I am used to the feeling being left and hanging. Everything is changing and I guess love is not worth sacrificing for it will leave you bleeding and crying.